-This sinful existence!

[Striver]

I pray to outlive this!
-Oh Allah please forgive me,
with the greatest of forgiveness!
-Oh Allah distance me from my sins,
not from Your Grace!
-Knowing You encompass all things,
but not seeing Your Face,
-Your Names and Attributes,
beyond enumeration,
-Not finding the inspiration for prostration,
the greatest condemnation!
-I feel evil and insane,
without the realization of Your Domain,
-Infiltrating my blood,
pumping through my veins!
-Free my tongue from its fears,
numbed over the years,
-Like a cry that has
no tears,
-A fog that
never clears.
-Oh Allah, be my Master!
and save me from this disaster!
-Of wanting You, but not deserving You!
of believing in You, but not serving You!!
-H Sellars