As-salamu aleykum wa rahmatullah,
I am quite new to the religion, but I have done plenty of research before I recited the shahadah to confirm my new beliefs. But I still have two very important questions to ask. But before I do, I'll give you some background information.
I live with two Catholic people (dad and younger sister Lucy) and one Christian person (my mum). I converted to the Islam religion in October 2007, but hid it from everyone until December, near the Christmas period. I have never really gone to Church, but that has nothing to do with this. But I also go to a Catholic high school, and I continue to learn about Christianity in R.E. and have to take part in Christmas carol concerts, and church too.
I have two questions. My first one is really for any females who are new, but it would be more helpful if one with more experience could help me.
1 How do I wear a hijab? I am unsure on what colours would go with my skin tone also. I am lightly-brown, my skin tans really easily and I do not need much skin protection at all. But I am unsure on how to wear one, and what colour I should have. It is all quite confusing, because I am don't have a clue on how to fit one. Oh, you know what I mean.
This next one can be answered my a new Muslim who has experienced the same difficulty.
2 As I said before, I attend a Catholic school and I don't know what to do. If I could, I would jump R.E. and finish off some work from previous lessons in the Unit downstairs.
I also fear other people's opinions. If I walked round school or the neighbourhood with a hijab, I would be the only one in the entire student body who is Muslim, wearing one. I would be laughed at and I would feel really upset. On this, my parents do not want me to be a Muslim. My mum isn't pushing me too hard, but my dad is totally against it. He shouts at me because of my decision and makes me cry, he always tries to make the point that some Muslims blow themselves up and are suicide bombers. I have tried to tell him that it is only a minority who do this, and Islam is the second-largest religion in the world after Christianity, but he won't listen. It's not just about this, but he is always very stubborn and doesn't care what other people think or say in a really bad way. He says, "if you are going to continue being a Muslim, Sarah, you'll be a no-one, and you'll make nothing of your life", and other really unfair things. Well before I even considered the Islam religion I have wanted to live in Morocco. Maybe a mountainous village in the Atlas Mountains like Fnideq, or the large, buzzing and very bizzare Marrakech. But that takes me onto another question.
3 How can I go out in public wearing a hijab and other clothing? My mum and dad wouldn't allow me to walk out the door wearing any Islamic clothing. I take a bag everywhere I go, and I understand that I could place it inside and put it on when I'm out of sight, but I don't want to hide this anymore. I want to be able to walk outside wearing one, without feeling down from my parents. They're always saying, "you're not a Muslim, you're a Catholic. You go to a Catholic school, and you were baptized a Catholic". I keep saying, "I'll change that in 2 years time when I'm 13", but they don't listen. I want to be able to walk outside without feeling bad.
4 But I also fear that some people hunt Muslims and murder them in some way, and if I went outside I would be prone to that risk. What should I do to take that feeling away from me?
Please understand. Please help me,