I understand that you are new to Islam and that you are very zealous. But I can sense alot of negative energy. Let us try to change that into positive energy. Yes, once it hits you how messed up the world is, it takes alot not to go bezerk. We are all enraged and deeply troubled over what is going on in the world, .
Sayyiduna Rasulullah was sent as a mecy to the worlds, the entire universe, and was the most compassionate of people to ever walk the earth. Let us try to eminate that. Now this is a Sunnah which takes more effort than most other Sunnan.
When a disbeliever passes away, instead of being joyful we should be devastated that we as Muslims have failed to deliver the message properly. So how do we learn to deliver the message properly? Firstly, to succeed we should try to walk in the footsteps of the beloved and be compassionate towards our fellow human beings. Because often when we do dawah, what we do is to tell them how horrible they are leading their lives, and how horrible situation they are in. While this is true, let's not forget that the Prophet, , said that should give glad tidings rather than scare the people away. So when let out negative energy instead of positive, this is what happens.
I also understand that you are zealous when it comes to your understanding and interpretation of Islam. I'm not saying that we should not use our intellect, because both of us are striving Muslims , mainly due Allah enabling us to use our intellect to understand that Islam is the truth. But sometimes we have to acknowledge that the Islamic knowledge we have aquired is very limited and that there are scholars who have dedicated their lives to studying the religion. Therefore it's also only normal that they reach other conclusions than we do, and if the deen was so simple, then there would be no reason for people do do so. Now I don't know what kind of "Sufis" that you have met, but the majority of great scholars of Islam have been so-called Sufis. And if you stick around I am sure that you may benefit alot from this site.
Patience is a virtue, and verily Allah is with the sabirun.