Salaam brothers, Hope somebody who can help private message me regarding my question
I have been Bait to a sheikh for over 1 and half years now, i have attended the sheikhs, khalifa's zikr majlis few times after i was bait to him , however since then my imaan has been up and down, and weakened. I did bait to my sheikh, as i knew i was going to unviersity, and it was going to be veyr difficult for me to stay strong on imaan due to the bad effects of the environment, and company. Therefore, since like a year, i have not met my sheikh, or khalifa because i always thought i will meet very soon but i didnt, until a time came that i thought what will my sheikh think that i have not come to see him, and i always thought that i should not see him as i have not fully obeyed to the zikr asghaar prescribed to the way it should have.
Therefore, i have not kept in touch with my sheikh and the sheikh's khalifa who i should contact as my sheikh is very old.
I need advice as to what i should do, i dont feel right due to myself not obeying. Is writing a letter regarding my spiritual condition etc a good idea, or should i physically go see my sheikh's khalifa.
Please brothers help me, i need it,
And Also make dua from Allah S.W.T to keep me steadfast on imaan
Reply back please brothers sincerely or private message,
also need someone who i coudl ocntact online regardign any issues, online easily