Sms. I am a recent revert to Islam. I apologise therefore if I seem brusque or uneducated but I want some advice if possible.
My reversion was totally unexpected - for me. I have been interested in Spirituality however for as long as I can remember. I was Christened when younger and my religion was important to me; although I became disillusioned in my teens when people would tell me what I should be doing, without doing it themselves!
I have had a series of dreams over the last 18 months which have left quite an impression on me, I have been reading a lot incl. the Quran and have had some very strange sensations also experiences.
I live in the Leicester area and have tried speaking to many Muslims, I've also been to a few talks and am taking instruction on the basics from some muslim sisters. But the women do not or cannot answer my questions. At the talks women do not seem to be allowed to speak, I think that they should be just as entitled to learn and benefit as any man; after all we have free will too.
Everytime I try to speak to someone, I'm simply told to ask a muslim women and to seek refuge from the Shaytan with prayer. This is not helpful as I already do these things.
If I say that I read a lot and browse the net, I'm told that this is not helpful; I should not try acquiring information in this way because as a revert I cannot possibly know what is right and what is wrong!
I know Allah knows best. But, I was under the impression that the seeking of ILM was a duty for every Muslim. Surely, we as Muslims are therefore supposed to help one another in this respect; pass on whatever we know to educate others?
How are we going to help other people and guide them to the Path if we cannot do this? This closing of the ranks or pulling up of the draw bridge I find very unhelpful.
If there is anybody living in the Leicester Area of the United kingdom who can help me, I would be extremely grateful. In anticipation......................ty