I felt like I didn't really want to live the typical American life and I didn't really want to go through dating, getting married and kids and then my husband cheats on me. I felt this American life is degrading and becoming less and less towards morals. I wasn't raised with religion. When my father passed away at age 21 I was in shock and sadness and I felt very very weak. I no longer felt safe. I saw my two best friends as strong Christians reel into their religion and how it helped them be strong in a time of uncertanty. I tried to digest the Bible but it was so complicated to understand. Christianity never attracted me but I had access few years later to Islamic books and they were the life blood to everything I felt in my heart but was not expressed. I knew I was different but didn't know there was a religion out there for me called Islam. I embraced Islam when I was 26.