Mashallah, this thread is very nice, I still have to finish reading the last pages..
I am very afraid of hell, sometimes I am so anxious that I feel anxious even for kafirs.
There are some people that I love who are not so close to God and I tried to make dawah and to tell them how important is salah, but they're still the same and I am sad for them, sad for my self, sad for everyone.. I hate being so sensitive because it makes me even more depressed, I don't know how to control my fear of hell.. I just can't stop thinking about death and hell since I found myself in trouble with God, and when I try to read Qur'an it makes me even more anxious

I wish I could wake up one morning and being someone else, someone with a sound heart, mind and soul but unfortunately I always wake up being me! I hate being me because I am tired being like this.
I don't understand why I can't hope in Allah's mercy as I used before, maybe because before I thought I was a good person who can be saved from hell, but I just can't think like this anymore.. not after shaytan and my nafs destroyed my heart!
sorry guys if I bother you with this useless comment, but I have nobody who I can talk to, so please try to bear me, inshallah I hope I will change and be doing Ok soon, so maybe then I will write something useful instead of my usual grievances.
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