I'm a white British girl who converted to Islam around 6 years ago from the Christian faith after reading the Quran and becoming involved with Islam and its teachings, however in the last 5 years due to personal problems I stopped practising and stopped wearing my hiljab, I lost my quran parchment I had on a pendant and ever since I have had nothing but problems. Now I have realised this is because I turned away from practising my faith and now am trying to get back into it however there are a number of issues I have with this at present as although I do not eat haraam foods or drink alcohol etc, there are aspects of my life that are haraam and I am wondering if my namaz n dua will be accepted by allah whilst my life is in its current state.
The acts I am concerned about are:
Living with my Sunni Muslim boyfriend, whose family do not agree with our relationship (they have never met me but make assumptions because I am a white British girl-even though my views are more traditional than my boyfriends)
My family who are vehemently against Islam and especially me wearing the hiljab
Not wearing the hiljab in my home around non-mahram or outside at present (there are sooo many interpretations of when and where I should wear the hiljab that I am greatly confused)
I seem unable to memorise the Quran..
In the last few days I have began to read the Quran again and since then my life has been improved in most aspects, however this morning problems began with my boyfriends family again (again he does not practise and commits a number of haraam acts) and i am blaming myself from steering away from the right path..
I am trying to get back on track with Islam and my beliefs and am praying inshallah that my namaz n dua will be accepted by allah until I can rectify the problems that are stopping me being subservient to Allah.
Please help :S
Bismillahir Rrahmanir Raheem