everyone for replying. I have found some comfort (for the time being). Normally I am okay but there are times I just get so emotional or something r someone will be remind me at home and its unavoidable and it just hurts so much. My heart literally hurts. I'm getting better with time but its not totally going to away. I ask Allah swt to turn my heart away from it if not against it as he is the turner of hearts, but I don't know why my dua is not being accepted
Most things I can give up if its not meant to be mine or can never have with time I will totally forget about it. But I don't know why I'm having problems with this one - its almost an obsession. I generally accept my fate and what ever is usually thrown at me - again somethings just take time but this one problem I have just doesnt seem to be going away.
I've also done Istihkara - on three different occasions over a long period of time. If at the time Allah swt turns your heart against something, then how can one years later 'regret' their decisions? or have their heart turned towards it now? It doesnt make sense
Brother Silat - out of curiosity - if the person your missing is not near you how do you blow on their forhead?
I'm also not too sure about reading onto someones clothes? That is usually associated with black magic?