I am conflicted about converting to Islam. Lately i have been researching Islam and reading a translated version of the Koran. I believe Muhammad is a Messenger of God and there is no true god but Allah. Out of all the religious texts I have tried The Koran speaks to me the most i feel a void being filled when reading. However I have a fear of openly converting and bringing shame to my family. It is also cowardism on my part i realize that. How do i know if i can handle the test of losing status, friends, and maybe even family if I openly practice. However if I don't openly practice i don't think I could call my self a Muslim. Sorry for my rant just trying to figure this out im sure others have been conflicted? Or was It a absolute?